maehoe's Xanga

Friday, August 31, 2007

Fri, 31 Aug 2007 12:20:39 GMT

Happy merdeka, dears ! Well, if anyone's still there. :D

http://ifmaecouldblog.blogspot.com

No special banner, no special header, no nothing. But, I can be brutally honestly that the blog won't always be as happy as can be. Yes, and it could be the silliest sh*t ever. Isn't that why it exists ? And, I'm still improving my english. Lets hope it actually gets better ! :]] So yeah if you whoever you are drop by, mind to just tag a message while you're at it ? And if y'guys were one of those in the links list or you've a link, i definitely would add you up.

Am I bragging ? Dah. :) So yeah, see whoever you are there ! Much love. <3

Monday, July 16, 2007

Mon, 16 Jul 2007 06:22:11 GMT

i'm moving. `

look what you've done ; you've made a fool out of everyone.

ask me if you would want to know the link.

h.e.r.e. { comes } the SUN `

Sat, 14 Jul 2007 08:22:12 GMT

How do I live without you if you ever go ?

So, yeah. Who's that pretty little thang ? - huggles - She's sharon aka one of the greatest people ever. <3 Well, to me - and I'm also sure one day ; She's going to make a big impact somehow and make malaysia's entertainment industry. Or maybe not, but the whole world's instead. (: And, she would so deserve it ! This is going to prolly be more cheesy or as cheesy as [ hers about me ] which really made my day. And, it still is ! Lol, okay thats what friends do.

We stick with each other through thick & thin. (;

It all started when I first arrived in school, and through matter of complications that shouldn't be remembered - i went to sit with the girl anyway. We began chatting and getting to know each other, and we instantly hit it off. :] Then, we hit a rough patch though which really sucked. :( I don't know why or how we did. Okay, eventho' I know literally why or how we did but thinking back - it was as if we were both totally different people. I guess maybe we matured ? Or maybe we changed for the better ? I know sharon's great now, so maybe just her. Hah okay.

Well yeah ! She's still my partner and staying awesome. She's also a girl with lots of talent. Plus, she makes schooling ultra-fun and easier to deal with ! We listen to each other ranting, which btw i really think i rant so much more but she never gets tired of it. :]] .. Alright, I think I should really stop bragging about my friend here. But in turn, she's awesome and she should really know she is. ;]

Okay, so what else ?

I'm going to watch harry potter tomorrow ! The movie is going to be so short lah. But oh well, i don't mind. My draco malfoy is back in action. :D And then after that, its going to be a daniel lee promo. Fi-na-lly. Layleng asked whether I want to join 'em at redbox first, but I'm going to watch harry potter already. So yeah, and I'm going to sound terrible 'cause I'll have to mention I've yet to buy the cd. Ahem, honestly I don't see why I used to like him so much - looking back. But daniel has improved A LOT ! Like, a lot a lot. I am going to buy the album probably, but I just gotta save the money up first. :) Plus cleo has been so excited and pumped for seeing daniel lee ! =] Lol, its going to be a heck lotta fun. I just need more money to buy all the cds i want. xD HAH i want to be spoilt. Can't I ? ;P

And oh, samyeo asked me to watch harry potter too. ITS HER BIRTHDAY TOMORROW ! .. Okay but I'm already watching with others but I'm still going to meet up with 'em for a moment. And, I'm ubber excited to see 'em again ! :]] Woo. So eventhough I have tennis really soon and I actually am suppose to finish typing this so I can go get ready, I'm feeling really happy. And then I'm going to chili's for dinner which is no t.g.i.f. but it'll work anyway !

So well, we need some comic relief. :D I have this odd pimple above my nose - between my eyes. Yeah ! And its really obvious, which is very annoying. xD I have pimples everywhere in my face, but that one is just .. strange. Also well, we were playing captain ball in school on friday and the ball kinda hit my toe so its currently .. bruised. As in, my toe nail is bruised like funny colour bruised.

Other than that, nadanadanaaa. I think I'll just stop here. :) I've gtg run to get ready for tennis, soo yeah. To continue on the changes-shiz post, well megan, sharon & i were talking about the beginning of the year through sj class. Which heck yeah, sounds really wrong because we weren't paying attention but .. it was just marking the latihan. Yes, just. xP Sooo yeah, I think I've finally figured and realized and decided and .. that sometimes things are going to be okay. And in fact, i should always be okay. Because i AM okay. Gosh, yeah. I do actually wanna have a right to be sad and seem as if I can be everything but happy, but the truth is - i can't. I can, but I can not to either. So basically, whats the point in that ?

Its way better off being yourself than anything. And no matter how hard it takes to fit in or how different you think you are sometimes, its better than trying to be someone else or .. yeah. 'Cause that ain't gonna benefit anyone. :]]

And so i roll hardcore.

oh p.s. ; Richard Marx "Now & Forever' is deffy gonna be my wedding song ! xD

- maeyune.

{ ` s t a n d [ STILL ] _. look p.r.e.t.t.y. ;]

Thu, 12 Jul 2007 11:54:39 GMT

Yeap, the wreckers is awesome. :D And, it sucks that this song isn't a single. So, I'm stuck using a fanmade video of 'Life with Derek''.Heck it is saddening to believe that this song isn't given the credit worth-ed. First off, its way better than half the crap thats played on radio. I might be exaggerating, or under-rating. Soo okay honestly, I've been spending not-that-little time just to find a video to fit the post ! HAH and i don't know why. I just needed something to make me start rambling off. Its obvious that I haven't been updating as frequently as I used to, so I would love to post as long as possible. Even if no one reads, but .. uh who cares ? (;

But people have problems that are worse than mine;
I don't want you to think I'm complaining all the time.

So, where should i begin ? =)

Um. Well, not much has happened really. I still need to study a lot more than i am right now. I haven't really been studying exactly too. Today was being busy to me, but somehow when I thought I was going to topple onto my couch right after the last activity aka tuition .. I found myself logging into xanga. :)) Well lets just put it this way - School was .. normal, or not so. Depends how you'll put it. Um, there's been crap and shit happening to others and not me. And for that I feel better, but for my friends ? .. There's a reason why they're called friends here. ;] So yeah. Studies-wise, we used seni to do choral speaking and i learnt new things here & there .. but really, lessons just passed really fast. Well then, I had science club as usual. And yeah, I've yet to figure out why I joined the club but anyway - we were chucking the plants signs thing which also meant standing under the sun - sweat - I LOST CALS ! xD Uh.. yeah. Then, I went straight for piano class in my school uniform and then I came back home for tuition and it turns out the tuitor came early. Seriously, I was so sure I was going to spend the whole time yawning. And so, I have no clue how I didn't.

Maybe its because I know I can't afford to spend anytime less not paying attention to studying when I'm suppose to. I'm practically wasting 'study time' right now, but um .. i shall care less. :] I've been studying some nights before, but it hasn't been exactly for a long time either. Weell i was sick from monday, so that made me have to sleep early. :( And I always sleep early, so this pretty much means earlier than early like .. nine. So I'm losing my attention on studying ! And i still don't want to leave this post hangin'.

Sometimes I find myself shaking in the middle of the night;
And then it hits me and I can't even believe this is my life.

Hmmkays, well I think i mentioned that I spent forever to find a song that shall relate to the post & my current about-so feeling, yes ? Stand still look pretty. ♥ I know that this no-time-for-studies time makes me stupid for caring about any-other-thing. But, i just can't focus on just one thing ! My thoughts just lead to friendship. love. jealousy. life. future && all those shiz. Y'know, y'know ? It gets frustrating probably. I lose myself and get lost in a lot of situations sometimes. And, I don't pick myself up from it which saddens. :( Hmm, how shall i put it ? Idk. I just act like a bitch, and know i shouldn't act like a bitch but i don't really change and re-act like a bitch. Ho-hum. Well, thats an example.

Its like how I wanted to get over you-know-what, but I couldn't. And, I've finally figured it wasn't because I actually couldn't. But it was more of how I was overly freaked out that I wouldn't benefit from it at all, 'cause I've been making changes here and there that would make a better impact in life. So far ? None have. Nope, every change i've tried hasn't exactly been working out. I shall not name, but everytime I look at everything I do that was suppose to be okay - it isn't. And, I end up regretting. So I guess its kinda like,

I want to paint my face & pretend that I'm someone else;
Sometimes I get so fed up, I don't even wanna look at myself.

Hmmphaaw. Remember those autobiography books in primary ? You let others write on it, and because its really because you want to remember. So for me, it started when i was seven. Yes ! Only seven, when I just started primary and I want to start 'keeping in touch' with people already. Lol, but yeah - my sister was nine and she brought her book back .. and I thought it was cool. So, i wanted to be a trendsetter and i randomly brought an empty book which so happened to be this psyduck pokemon thing from .. pokemon aaand yeah. I made people write on it. Of course, people didn't really get it and I ended up faking the whole book up just to please myself. Yep, I practically filled most of the pages by myself with other classmates' names and pretend they actually wrote it. So when I show it to my sister, she shall think I am cool. ROFL, right ? I guess that memory just crossed my mind all-so randomy, it just suddenly hit me that .. In that sense, I've never changed.

Do i really need to explain how I haven't changed in that sense ? Grr, this shall be long-winded. ;P Well the point is, I still want people to go "Yeah, that was maeyune" which I know I'm so darn perasan but HAH i'm admitting it okay. I'm just so self-absorbed.

.. wait this isn't exactly the point. My point was I don't see how this benefits me anymore. I've been such an anti-crap person and how is it making me feel better ? .. It doesn't. Nope, it doesn't. I listen to so-called 'new' songs ( 'cause they're in the us first ? ) and I spaz it out to people. Then people just roll their eyes and three months later - its all a big commotion, but I just got so .. over it. It de-sanes myself. Boo. Or its not just songs, but in every other area. I guess I suddenly realized that this strait started out when i was seven. And well, I can't change it ! And I can, but somehow I don't want to. I like acting all 'i-knew-this-before-you-did' sometimes maybe, 'cause it gives you some self-esteem. And nobody listens and in the end i'm the loser, but Idk.. LOL this post is getting strange ! I'm ranting on how i'm an arrogant bitch. Alright. I guess I'll stop.

And I hate the way you look at me I have to say
I wish I could start over..

HAH so okay, I doubt this post makes much sense. But, I think i say this in every post so now none of my posts make sense. I think I just scared another dozen of people off, and I .. don't know. It sucks to always let people down, but I can't help it. I'm not going to pretend that I'm not like this and act differently if well .. certains can't face it. I know the blabbing above prolly didn't exactly connect or really made sense, but I can't help it. I don't know just how to .. blurt everything. Oh well.

'You just want people to take you seriously, don't you ?" - avienne.

I am slowly falling apart
I wish you'd take a walk in my shoes for a start;
~~And you might think its easy being me~~
You just stand still, look pretty.

( This blog might go private soon. ;| )

Well um, so to end this post in a completely different mood. Whambamwhamwham.

Heck, JAKE GYLENHAAL

doesn't give me cooties at all ! AND SO

HE IS MINE.

Reading the post 'till this point was so worth it, right ? ;D

And p.s., I think I won't be back for awhile. I don't know how long or short 'awhile' would be, but well as i said - I have to study like i haven't studied before and no, it has nothing do with my insecurities. .. That sounded awkward, but yeah. Hah i put my words frankly. xD

I know you think thats more than just bad luck.

__. much love, maeyune.

forever `{{ y.o.u.r.s }} _.

Mon, 09 Jul 2007 08:31:05 GMT

{ CLICK ` }well, here comes another boring, cliched 'how well do you know me' quiz. =) of course, no matter how much time you're gonna waste. just do it, please ? i'll smile like an IDIOT for you. see ? i already did.
Create your own Friend Test here

_. { starts with ` GOODBYE <--

Sat, 07 Jul 2007 07:02:34 GMT

I guess it's gonna break me down,
Like falling when you try to fly,
It's sad, but sometimes moving on with the rest of your life,
Starts with goodbye.

Okay, I mean it se-rious-ly. Who didn't know that was coming ? (; Yeap, no elaborations needed. Da-da-da. Lets just pop in lyrics here & there, but other than that everything should be fine. Mm, so I noticed that I haven't been updating and I am sorry. Darn it, but I've been saying sorry a lot these days and that sucks too. :( I can't help it. I've been bitchier than ever, from everything to anything and it sucks. Well, so I figured that I could be y'know 'behind this smile, there're tears that you'll never see' but instead i became all 'can't you see that you should just phuck off ?'

=] i told you i've been a bitch. i think i still am, but oh well. thats just another habit to overcome right ? - insert shrug - there's every reason to continue being optimistic because i'm still alive & my family is still there & i've got friends. With that, i should stop complaining about everything. Dhurr. Well, i shall try. (; And i really still don't see whats wrong with being optimistic. Heck okay, I know its wrong to be perky & over-bubbly and all that shit but see if I stop being that, I shall start to break down & cry. That wouldn't be nice now, right ?

I'm getting pretty sick of myself making promises to self that I never kept. So, thats why I kept this one ! Proud of me huh huh huh ?

Lol, and I don't exactly think any single soul out there gets me. But as always, I have the tendency to never bother making sense. Woo. So, back to studying ! I mean, everything has passed from digicelebriteen to vosa and its now back to test. Oh yeah, choral speaking practices are starting tomorrow 'cause of some opening ceremony thing which would be awesome. Well other than that, there's studies to prioritize. :] So I guess, I'm going to be off studying. I need to study so I shall.

I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life

- maeyuneloves~~you~~, her friends. :) The most understanding, forgiving people ever. Rock the world, peepos.

i t.r.y. to be like { grace kelly }; but her l o o k s were too [ SAD ] `

Sun, 01 Jul 2007 12:21:19 GMT

can someone answer why is hannah montana soundtrack #2 number one and pushing kelly's my december to no.2 ? :( well, i've gotta admit that i'm going to prolly buy sandi thom then daniel lee then ponder whether i shoudl by 'my december'. but still ! hannah montana is a no way. oh well, there's much more things to talk about ! :]] di-gi-ce-le-bri-taayn.

sharon&&avienne were looking pretty. i mean, they're always pretty but i was just being an ultra-spaz when i saw 'em ! and on the other hand, my camera had the worst quality ever. grrr. oh well, i betcha they looked like stars in their own way ! those pretty talented beeyotches ( hah ! kiddin'. xD ), don't 'cha wish you could be just like 'em ? alright, so after that the cameraman passed the mic and was like "can you say a few lines for avienne and sharon please ?" so we ended up having to do three takes and .. we really should have done the cheer. unfortunately, at that moment everything was all a blur. xD i went with chandini&&minwei straight from pn. hamizah's, and we were suppose to have lunch at pizza hut. we met sarah after finding 'em backstage, and we three decided on buns instead. :D lol trust me, i just had no appetite to eat.

so what if it wasn't me performing ? it was my friends ! & they're love. <3

.. okay y'know what. everybody should get the idea that i'm not exactly good with minute-to-minute review right ? lets just randomly skip to randomly whenever. xD and my sister is counting down to her minutes to use the computer, grr why ? alright, i'm going to have a photo-slam. i'm sorry ! lets just long story-cut-short. they didn't get through but i mean, they still have so much room to improve ! i know they can do better and they should know that too ! :] congrats to the winner, saban who sang absolutely prettaay. now summing it up ..

' cute ex-finalist/judge. hot finalist. rad drummer from estrange. great experience. fun. '

UH YEAH. xD doesn't these non-elaborative things suck ? .. but my sister is counting me down because she wants to use. :(

us && the drummer from estrange. i really should give him a name, but technically i don't know it .. yet. xD i'm sorry ! he was awesome though, and oh he's got a great shirt. and btw, did i mention transformers is a must-watch ? its so nice ! josh duhamel & shia lebeouf, how can anyone miss it ? seriously. that day was fun too, and it was great fun seeing people. lalala. i mean, i reached back home practically about midnight and i felt really bad for my 'rents but .. okeeday. i should stop rambling about this, 'cause i'm over-using computer time no matter how bad i wanna talk about everything possible. :(

well, yeah thats joseph. i didn't really bother about digicelebriteen last year, so would i have known that he was finalist last year ? well no, so i only figured that out today. and, i wanted to take a picture with him plus tonsa others so sharon went inside the room and went 'my friends have a crush on you' to joseph and he laughed. okaaay. xD but, he's a cutie. lol ! who cares. ;P its the truth.

i really haven't been growing since december/may ( hah i messed up the dates on the measuring tape), y'know what lets just pretend that i'm as tall as chandini okay ! xD & i gotta run, so i'll continue blabbering asap. (;

- maeyune. <3

` iMISSyou. ; }

Sat, 30 Jun 2007 07:11:48 GMT

Samantha

Posted 25/06/2007 06:50

so you talking with mae yune
I miss her .. ha ha I get to see her in tuition every sunday
her hair is a bit longer
she's still soo cute!

so, i was going to reply yunfern's friendster comment and i saw this. :(

aww sam ! grr. you're going to make me cry.

i miss 'em. :[

i'd be lying bad if i said i didn't. & y'know what, i've just pretty much realized that i've been losing touch with 'em. i didn't bother calling anyone up all last month, and i only talked to sam because of tuition. & it still sucks, because i don't see her everyday anymore. :( then i look at alison or sam's comments and i just LOL in front of my comp 'gain. these people used to make me crack up and laugh so hard. grrr, and then i never really bothered to just call up and say 'HI' slowly. i didn't even know yunfern changed her name to christina & i've lost touch with more than half the people i'm close to.

i just miss them alot. <3

plus honestly, i still have to say that i have no clue how i deserved these really awesome people around me. i'm serious ! i don't know how right am i or if i'm any right at all, but there are still people around me that are .. stickin' and then .. yeaaah. boohoo.

well, sharon&&avienne rocking prangin mall tomorrow ! maybe i can try being there for 'em just like they were for me too. (;

h.a.n.g.i.n.g. by _. a { MOMENT } `

Wed, 27 Jun 2007 12:36:56 GMT

Mirror, Mirror on the wall, Have I got it?
'Cause Mirror you've always told me who I am ;
I'm finding it's not easy to be perfect.

Who are you to tell me that I'm less than what I should be?
I don't need to listen ;
To the list of things I should do.

okay hey ! huimei drew this and it. is. pretty. well okay, actually she drew me a copy first which also wrote 'its a bittersweet symphony' but unfortunately we somehow only bothered to capture this one in school sooo .. i didn't bother taking the other so yeah. hahkay, well all the reason why a camera was brought ? sejarah folio. of course, who only follows the motive ? we started to camwhore as .. umm expected ? but there are photos on megan & sharon's cameras too so i guess i'll just have to wait for most of 'em. :(

big smiles ! :D well actually, yes thats what i always figured. y'know, i seriously have to learn how to stop being so sensitive && take jokes once in a while. i mean, i don't get it. i do ! .. i just don't get family jokes. dhuuurr. dad called me high-strung today. :( i'm being sensitve and that sucks ! Ah. well, and idk somehow whenever i set my mind on something or i really agree in this thought and they say it .. i just feel like such a joke. i guess, i don't know. i just feel a lil' different sometimes, and maybe thats really wrong but i'm trying to figure out how i can be the same. ]: i just really don't know. LOL craaaapin'.

anywaaaay. i am speechless ! GEE. i am pumped up for my friends lah ! i mean -; jackfruit, singing && everything. its just soo.. happy-like. =] i know this has completely nothing to do with me, but they're my friends. <3 idk whether it sounds stupid really, maybe i just don't like being even close to self-centered. or, i don't even really comprehend the definition of selfish so i don't even try getting close to that vocab. sooo see ! i don't know and .. i don't know.

okay, so oh the other thing was - i have this completely new schedule planned out for me. i mean, really. i'm setting this whole new shiz & stuff and that makes it awesome. LOL, i doubt anyone gets it but okaaay. its just that i have trouble keeping stuff a secret and wanting to make it public too, so thats why it just ends up not making sense. =] i just had this completely random idea and thats when i really figured that seeing people happy makes me happy.

and, i'm moving on. i'm moving on ! its not just a statement here, its a fact. its a fact, its a fact ! would anyone really believe me ? & i never exactly denied it, 'cause i was just being stubborn. but seriously, whats the point lah ? its no point of waiting about something that won't be worth-it. i don't mind being lonely and being my own one & only, but the thing is i'm noooot ! :( i can't do it, its so hard and my friends don't think its possible either. though i really want to, i really want to 'cause i want to move on, but yet i still want to wait. grr, isn't that so annoying ?

"life would be better without dudes" - avienne. "life was easier when boys had cooties" - samt.

OKAY ! enough about that now, weiyun tagged me on 'if it was illegal to eat cheese'.

hmmkays. well actually, i'm not really a cheese person. i just ate cheese y'sterday, but thats after a reaaally long time. and oh ! there's a 'different variety of cheese' potrait on the kitchen wall, but thats about it. my life doesn't exactly revolve around cheese so hmm. doesn't cheese gave tons of fat ? i feel so speechless for once.

well okay, then obviously more than just a number of people would have a chance of stepping foot in the same jail cell that paris was in before. & then, well the world would be a pretty sad place. i would be counted as one of the good citizens, because i shall live w/o cheese. i think i can, no ? =] &, people would probably have to say something like 'maeyune' instead of 'cheese' whenever they take a picture. the world would be a waay better place without the cheese. plus if something is cheesy, well we can't use the term 'cheesy' because everybody would probably be like 'whats cheese ? its not edible, is it ?' and soo the world has to be changed into something like 'thats so .. high school musical' which would be odd. o.o

basically i'm rambling away, and the point is we should eat cheese and it should be legal. ifs suck. :)

save the cheese ; save the world. y'know ?

LOL ! .. i'm so not in the mood today. gee, i guess i'll prolly just sign off. i've been slacking on RPs too. boohoo. :(

see, i've got my moments. (;

- maeyune ; i bore, do you ?

[&&] darling` { GET A. G R I P } _.

Mon, 25 Jun 2007 12:03:59 GMT

note : one tree hill s5 spoilers ahead. (:

( i know its an old one & i know i don't really like leyton & i know its cheesy. but, it somehow or rather became cute. ;P )

okay, i'm sorry but i can't help it ! whooopss. well not really, 'cause i'm going to do this intentionally. why am i going to be oth-deprived for the next -counts- six/seven months ? i mean grrr. its going to be a whole entirely different year when it gets back to season five. and my nathan isn't going to have a really bright future ahead ! i.. should really stop looking at spoilers. but, i just can't help it really. && after i read the spoilers, i feel less deprived then i go into the all "why-cant-i-know-it-faster" but .. yeah. thats just 'cause i can't get the script right from the scriptwriter's hands or that'd be nice.

boohoo. :( so i watched two movies in two days ! & no, that isn't an accomplishment but i brought that up so i can say "i exercised twice in two days !" too. =] Yeap, you heard me. I went to the gym last night and worked out on the threadmill for like, 30 mins. HAH ! Yeah, so I prolly only burnt about 100 cals and that makes it less than 10 g ? but, idk and i exercised ! xD that cooounts. now, then well actually i was s'pose to walk up the hill y'sterday not go to the gym. well, then i started watching a walk to remember and then my dad was too tired to walk up the hill .. sooo we decided to walk up the hill today instead.

YEAAAAH.

so, that explains why i've 'been exercising' ! HAH, which prolly would halt until tennis lesson on sat. this is so random, but oh today we had to choose our topics for aural group presentation yadaya. & we decided to do 'eating disorder' because we rock ! x] i mean, bullemia; anorexia .. & well okay, obesity - but its not like no one has never thought about these before and its just a presentation. & thats the first thing that pops up when health issues is mentioned ! sooo i'm just crapping because i have nothing better to type. x]

oh have i told my 'rents yet ? No. my sister ? i'm working on it. i guess i really am a coward. HAH like i didn't know that already, but okaay - i really mean it when i say i'm working on it and wanting to know more ! .. hmm i think there was really something that was worth-blogging but then i forgot. okay, so besides the fact of nothing - i'm doing fine, and my life is being awesome. :]] i compiled this 'top ten hotties' list which .. i currently forgot two of the top ten but lets pretend you didn't know that. xD umm, and it was very hard minus-ing chris evans, adam brody && orlando bloom. no thanks to megan, samt & sharon. LOL kidding ! .. okay not really, but i want to sound as i'm nice.

mwahahhas. oh, the other thing is i'm seriously going to start buckin' up on everything possible. i think its fun & nice to finally get back to just be .. okay. i mean, i was always okay but now i'm okay okay as in i feel pretty carefree and it hasn't been like that for awhile. its been going on for about three days now and thats why i'm being all secure about it. (; 'cause thats what really i need, isn't it ? i know that i've got to work hard for my grades because i am slacking and i suck, plus my dad's been reminding me that which isn't really a nice thing. he's all "its not just in your mind and you've gotta know it" which is really nice because he bothers to realize that. thats why i love my dad ! .. but its just i already know that, and i am trying to do that. and, trying is not good enough so .. but i haven't been signing onto msn & friendster-ing as much as i used to. i haven't been watching tv for ages too. sure, i caught a bit of heroes but thats just a bit.

.. its like gee, maybe i need to do more. i need to stop wasting time and its prolly too early to freak out. but, i just can't help it. :] everyone knows i'm lazy and that shouldn't matter. i need to work hard and stop just saaaying that. ah. & along with that, i think i need more dicispline and lose more weight and really be a better person. hah, i should stop rambling but i'm just keeping my priorities straight. :]

sooo i'm going to go read what sharon asked me to read now. and, "relax, take it easy" ? oh and did i mention that samc & samt were really mean today ? :( well, not mean mean because they didn't even manage to trick me but after samc was all "yeah, y'know i was like.. " yadaya and i thought they might be serious. :( WOW ! so i hugged her and they broke into laughter. nice one, peopleee. i didn't believe you ! y'knooow i didn't. i'm not getting my hopes up either. i'm just being .. whateverr. ha-ha.

- maeyune makes you high. `